It happens that I want you, and so I just haven’t room for any other desires.
Anonymous asked: Why don't you dress more girly? Girls should dress feminine not masculine, and you would be showing your beauty if you dressed and acted more feminine like a girl is supposed to! :")
Thank you sir. Yes, I called you a sir. Since we are doing a great job of making assumptions and type-casting, I might as well go ahead an assume you are a boy because obviously according to the Bible and to society, boys are stronger and better right? I should probably also say that you are White because according to societal norms, they are the superior race. I assume that is also perhaps where you come to the conclusion that I am not beautiful if I do not dress according to my chromosome pair.
You, sir, are fucking hilarious. You truly made my night. I thank you for that.
In order to be the most polite question receiver I can be, I will answer your question fully.
1) You are so brilliant. You managed to follow the most prominent assumption made by people today. "Blue is for boys and pink is for girls". Now, under your choice of diction: Feminine and Masculine, they are probably the most bullshit words every constructed. What is masculine and what is feminine? I should ask you honestly since you seem to know pretty much everything about how things should be. So I’m thinking…masculine is leather Sperry’s, ties, dress shirts, polos, boxers, etc. Feminine is dresses, tight ass tank tops, heels, things with an infinity sign on them, etc. I mean, that’s the textbook definition. Acting feminine? Hm. So that means I can freely post Starbucks pictures on Instagram, have sex with anyone if they call me “babe”, and probably be homecoming queen on my knees right? See, that is an awful interpretation that maybe you don’t have. But I will gladly push it on you, just like you feel the need to push your dumbass definitions of gender on me.
2) I’ll just go ahead an diverge a little about myself here. Now keep in mind, I wouldn’t normally do this until we went on our first date but hey you’re a special one aren’t ya? My name is Mattie. You’ve probably got a problem with that name because it isn’t the usual “MADDY” or “MADDIE”. #sorryboutcha #idgaf. I am genderqueer. I reject the notions of “gender” obviously and I can identify with both. I like some dresses but I also can fucking rock a bow tie. I like flowery things, but I smell like a man and people love it on me. (Probably get more action than you ever will with your comments). I apologize, that was probably a rude comment. You never give those do you. I apologize. Anyways, onto the example, I was bullied all throughout my elementary school, middle school, and obviously (because of you) my high school years. Know why? Because I dressed “more masculine’ than others.
3) I am also mildly autistic (Asperger’s syndrome). It’s a disorder that is characterized by intense interests, failure to exhibit perfect social skills, awkwardness, and sometimes emotional trauma. Another part of this disorder that some Aspies claim to have experienced, is an uncertain sense of identity. Some, like myself, don’t know whether they identify with male or female because we don’t understand why there must be such a fucking binary. I also have a moderate case of sensory issues that tags along with ASD ^. That means I have a mini panic attack, I look like a dumbass in front of everyone, or I shrivel up into a ball while closing my eyes, rocking back and forth, and closing my ears because the sound, light, or feel of something bothers me. This is also a “classic Aspie” thing. Sometimes, I don’t like the frilly tags and extra ruffles that most girl clothes contain. It makes me go insane and I don’t like it. I like men’s clothes because they feel better on my skin so I don’t want to get out of it.
4) Who are you? Are you God? Are you the overlord? Are you the fucking president? Who are you to tell me or ANYONE for that matter that they aren’t “beautiful” or “pretty” if they don’t act their gender? Who are YOU to go on ANON and tell an innocent kid who is just trying to make it through the night without crying or self-harming or having a breakdown that they aren’t your FUCKED UP definition of “beautiful”? That’s right. You are NOBODY. Why don’t you come off of anon and say it to my goddamn face? Better yet, why don’t you meet me first? I might be a pleasant surprise to you and maybe I can “help” you get out of your ways of judging people on the INTERNET. I think I am beautiful in some ways. Not all, but a few. I think I have a nice personality, I’m pretty smart, I care about people, and I only want to love others. Oh yeah, you also forgot the fact that beautiful is not only physical aesthetics.
You sir/ma’am/asshole/etc. are the reason that people are dying. You are the reason people are bullied. You are the reason people go home every night and keep continuing their note to their families telling them they are sorry because they couldn’t live up to your BULLSHIT expectations of life.
So I will keep on wearing my shit. And being who I want to be. And acting however the hell I want to. And when I do something big in life, along with everyone else who has ever been bullied or abused because of your comment/general issue, we will be sure to include you in our acceptance speech and say “Screw you, we made it” because we did.
"We are not the faded echoes of voices crying out ‘names will never hurt me’. Of course, they did. But our lives will only ever always continue to be a balancing act— that has less to do with pain, and more to do with beauty.” — S.K
So, I’m sorry upfront for this rant. You made the headline though. Thanks. I will forgive you, I mean, I don’t even know you. I can’t judge whether you are a nice person or not. Maybe you are, maybe you aren’t. But I wish you the best of luck in getting along with people in life. Maybe be a little more accepting.
Thank you for your input and have a nice night. :”)
Too boy for you? Sorry.
~The Perplexed Hipster~
My bones ache from missing you.
"I’ll always love you, the Bee Charmer."
willow and tara side by side because wow cuties
Tara + sitting with her feet off the ground
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